Title: Loving you
Chapter: 3/?
Genre: Romance,Angst
Rating: PG-13
A/N: English is not my first language so once again,gomen ne for the errors.
Summary: Tegoshi had changed a lot

Chapter 1    Chapter 2

Chapter 3

 Today is the concert day and all the NEWS members were inside the dressing room getting ready because the concert were about to start.

 “EH~ where’s Tesshi? Isn’t he the one who is always early?” Kei-chan said after he noticed that someone is missing.

 Ryo scanned the room after hearing what Koyama had said only to confirm that Tegoshi is still not yet around. It is so unusual since Tesshi is always the first one who is arriving in their concerts, interviews or even in their personal hang-outs.

 “Massu.  Where’s Tesshi?” asked Yamapi

 “I don’t know, I woke up this morning and didn’t notice Te-“ Massu’s word were cut off when a figure opened the door and walked into the room. It was Tegoshi.

 “Oha-“ greeted Shige but Tegoshi just passed by him as if he didn’t noticed Shige’s greeting and the NEWS members who is all waiting for him to greet them as the usual. He headed to his locker, grabbed his costumes, went inside the changing room and left the confused NEWS members.

 “Kowai!” whisper Koyama as he hides behind Shige.

 What happened to him? asked Ryo to himself.

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 NEWS concert went very well. Everybody is giving  their best whether in solo, duo or group parts. As the concert is progressing and it is Tegoshi’s solo part, Ryo find a place where he could watch Tesshi sing very clearly. He chose the place near the monitor where it closes up Tesshi’s face. Tegoshi started to sing. Ryo was just staring at him from  a far and admiring the latter's every move/ It’s dark in the concert hall and you can only notice Tegoshi because the spot light was always spotted to him. The song is very touching and Tesshi really singing it with all his heart. As the song were about to end, and the camera focused to Tesshi, and Ryo got surprise when he saw a  tear fell from Tegoshi's eyes. Tegoshi immediately looked down, avoiding the camera, waited until the spot light shutted off.

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After singing, Tegoshi headed to the dressing room where no one is around since they were all busy in the progressing concert. He sits on the couch and started to sob with his two hands on his face. Up until now, the scene of Ryo throwing the bento he made for him after knowing who made it is still playing repeatedly in his mind. Still, he can’t accept the fact that Ryo doesn’t like him back and the worst, Ryo really hates him. It seems that there’s a thousand needles inside his heart that it really hurts that much.

 Suddenly, Tesshi heard footsteps from his back. He immediately wiped his tears before he looked back and to his surprise that it was Ryo. The scenes from yesterday came flashing back to his mind.

 “Tegoshi, What the hell are you doing here? The-They’re all finding you out there” Ryo try to act normal as usual but his body shivers as he talks to Tesshi who is now looking straightly to him that adds to his nervousness. He can’t figure out the loneliness from Tesshi’s eyes as he try to look at them. He also didn’t know why Tegoshi is now looking straight to him with those sad eyes.

 “You baka! Yo-you’ll trying to ru-ruin the concert by being self-centered again. You’re really stupid! And what are you do-doing there crying like an idiot! Huh? Huh? Answer me” Ryo’s words to Tesshi but still his eyes were looking straight to Ryo’s eyes.

 “I said answer me!!” Ryo exclaimed as he heard no answer from Tesshi.

 “Done?” Tesshi’s cold answer.

 Ryo got surprise from Tegoshi’s sudden action. He couldn’t say any word cause he’s really shock from the gloominess of Tesshi’s eyes .It seems that the Tegoshi who is now in front of him is not the Tegoshi who is always apologizing even though it is not his fault. He can see the eyes of Tegoshi that seems carrying so many pain but yet he don't know where are those sadness and loneliness were coming from.

 “Wha-what did you say?” Ryo finally said but now in a low tone.

 Tegoshi didn’t answer back and just walked out from the room without looking back at him. Ryo wants to stop him but Tegoshi disappered immediately. Ryo felt his chest hurts from Tegoshi’s appearance. He really wants to hug him and take all the pain of Tesshi away but looking from Tesshi’s eyes, he felt guilt that stopped him from doing any action. He looks so fragile and it started Ryo to be worried.

 “What happened to you Tegoshi?” Ryo mumbled.

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“Otsukare Minna! You all really made a good job in tonight’s concert so im gonna treat you all tonight. Let’s celebrate!” Said the Manager to the staffs and to the members.

 Massu smiled to Ryo as he heard the word celebrate that means food, food and lots of foods. Ryo smiled back to Massu only to notice a quiet Tegoshi flipping some magazines in one of the corners of the room.

 “Ne~Tesshi.What are you doing there? C’mon and join us here. Manager-san’s gonna treat us for tonight.” Shige said to Tesshi.

 “Okay” cold answer of Tesshi without looking at them and still flipping the magazines.

 All NEWS members got surprised and the change of atmosphere is really written on the air. Nobody dares to speak, say anything or react from Tegoshi's answer.

 After a few seconds, Tegoshi got up and went outside without looking to anyoneof them and left a room filled with jaw dropped people.

 “Wha-what’s tha-that?” Koyama finally asked.

 Ryo is now very confused and worried about Tegoshi’s actions latelt. He wonders what is his problems that made him like that. Tegoshi now is not the Tesshi he used to be  with. Tegoshi who doesn’t want to hurt anybody. Tegoshi who is always jolly and always smiling. Tegoshi who is always full of life and makes everybody happy and lighten up their moods.

 Doshite no Tegoshi.

 Why you became like that?

 It hurts me seeing you like that you know

 Ryo said to himself.As the others members continue to discuss about the Managers treat.

 

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Comments are loved again minna!

i already had a plot in my mind for the valentine's day so watch out for it.

Arigatou for reading!